just kenny.

2006-10-17T01:29:00.000-07:00

as expected. my maths failed. badly.
and for the first time im worried about whether im able to promote or not. it depends really.
didnt worked hard enough. and i couldnt say i didnt get what i deserved. it could have been worse.
hahs

i guess. leave it to Bro Paul. but at least. i know i would not get kicked out. haix
as usual. my friends immersed themselves in joy and it seems that although they are cheering. it was all but silence for me. i could have cheered with them. i know i can. hmmm

well. no looking back then. i really wanna worked hard to get my body into shape now.
have to wrked damn hard. super super hard. run, run, run and stil running. wanted to go sch this morn to run. hahs. couldnt wake up. damn tired.

i gotta run tml. 12 laps at least. haha. go go kenny!. hahs

to Vincent Ng: Just you wait till i get my bods. i'll snatch all the endorsement from you. haha

2006-10-16T06:37:00.000-07:00

haha. this time theres no drum roll. but well. im back!.
was rather moodless to blog for the last few wks. been kinda down. hah but well. im a fighter.
of course i survived it. but its a different story without my classmates.

haha promos over. got back the results and well. still in the process of promoting when otheres have already promoted. haha have to wait till my H1 out. hah

GP- Subpass
History- Fail
Lit- Pass
Econs- Pass
Maths- Pending (oh well. its as gd as a fail. when did kenny last passed maths?)

Its been a rather traumatising mnth i supposed. but well. gotten over it and im still fighting fit now. haha
thanks to my classmates in 1T05 and the outings we had. its been really fun!. haha thanks to Melynda too. shes an angel. im sure she is. haha at least to me. thanks girl!.

shallnt blog too much today. will blog more tml. just that im now in the process of getting my fitness and passion back for basketball. lost my jersey number. its an inspiration number for me.
well ppl may think that its just a number. but to me, its not. theres more to it. haha

well. thats all. take care guys. and esp melynda and 1T05!. haha

2006-10-16T06:03:00.000-07:00

well. im back. was quite surprised that i didnt blog for like one whole mnth. haha
i'll try to blog more yeah. to improve my GP. hah! shit ass. my GP commit suicide. from 51 to 43.
my promos were a joke. funnier than all the jokes i ever said. hahs

GP- Subpass
Hist-Failed
Econs-Pass
Lit-Pass
Maths-Pending (but come on. when did kenny last passed math?) hah

rather disappointed by my history. mug the hardest for that. in the end?

was thinking alot on whether i wanna stay in CJC and when i see my classmates. the answer became obvious. Yes. I so wanna stay in CJC. heard that Bro Paul? DOnt be sucha ass and retain me yeah. oh well. shall say PUH-LEASE~!!! lols

hahs. its my classmates that i gotta be thankful for. they helped me survive one of my lowest period in CJC. and well. thanks to Melynda too!. haha shes sucha sweetie and angel. im adamant that god sent her down. haha

I think i gotta find a job soon. my bank account running dry. maybe go back to cartel and work. haha missed debbie and van and the rest. well. training starting soon. and i've better find my passion back. and MORE imptantly, my fitness. haha its an all-time low amn. fat ass kenny.

words of wisdom- dont write of me so soon. i'll be as fit as er... POPEYE in 2 mnths time! haha

Take care everyone and especially 1T05!.

2006-09-20T06:18:00.000-07:00

kinda stumbled upon this song which was written by someone special
it goes like this...

You and I both

I forgot how long it was,
since i last told you i loved you,
and now you'd tell me you loved me too.
But i can't forget how painful it was.
when i had to part with you on my birthday.
The look in your eyes, i don't know what to say.

I was always grateful,
for how you could accept my misperfections.
yet that day, i actually hurt you.
I was so heartless. I was blinded.
I never knew all the things you did were for me.
It was too late to turn back.

Two years down the road, we're still us.
We've changed, yet you were always there for me.
How you sat beside me and helped me wipe my tears.
How you helped me carry my books and then walked away.

Now, there's another her.
You were hesitating.
I wanted you to choose her, although it hurts deep inside.
I wasn't a good girl for you.
Perharps it's my turn now, like how i left you for him.
I still loved you, i wanted to feel your arms around me again.
Iwant you back by my side.
But i dont know, what's holding me back.

You're a good guy.
Yet i just let you slip outta my life, just like that.
Perharps, she'd be a better girl.
One who wouldn't huet you like i did.
Maybe if we could live life twice,

you and i both, we shall meet once again.
If fate permits, maybe destiny'd bring us together again one day.
All i wanna say is, "i'm sorry".

2006-09-13T08:39:00.000-07:00

special post today!
*pls read aloud

HAHA!
WAHAHAHAHA
MUAHAHAHHA
HEE
WOOHOO!
WOOSH!

dedicated to rachel. well as u wished, no more emoness.
A HAPPY POST!

well thanks for keeping emoness away from me(though u didnt do anything, the fact that u have smething for me to suan(baby***) is enough). fully appreciated.

my lipo? when?

2006-09-12T07:32:00.000-07:00

*pants haha just back from jogging. damn long nvr jog. or rather damn long nvr feel sad cause i only jog when i am sad.
jogging's fun, damn fun. when u are jogging, all those thoughts just sort of ran through you and smehow, i love to run when im sad. thinking of all the sad things do help during running,

imagine....

the wind blowing against you..
blowing away ur sadness...
its heaven.

i think it was last yr cross country..
we sort of stayed in a chalet the night before the run,
gulped down damn lot of bottle of booze, slept for only like 1 hr?
guess what?...the run turn out to be exceptionally good.
ALTHOUGH i did not finish(ankle sprain) i was like in position 5 almost 400m away from the finishing line. i was not tired at all then.

the running just now felt the same.
slept for 2 hrs ytd.
i felt damn light when running just now.
the more i run, the lighter i got. haha

oh well, MAYBE meeting my friend tml for bomber.
BUT haven confirm yet cause shes must be dreaming of me now. LOL
haha im so gonna make her emo tml. hee well thats all. and cya guys tml.

im starting to feel lighter
maybe, it means im starting to let go too...

2006-09-11T06:53:00.000-07:00

didnt blog for god knows how long? 10 yrs? lol. ay. was too lazy la.
well, quite alot of things happened and i dont know seriously. it seems like so abrupt. doesnt seem true to me. thing is, im not quite convinced yet. maybe it will take time to show but i doubt it will show. hah
oh ya. today first day of school. felt so distant from my clsmates la. too long nvr socialise with them. denise, charissa, keith and co. they seemed to have moved to pluto! haha
we had our revised timetable. damn slack. i think the only enriching lessons are econs. i just love econs. can i marry u econs? lols
hmmm abt my revision. its like as fast as a...ferrari?(compared to a jet plane) lol i've covered only "most" of econs and hist? maths? lit? oh, maybe they followed them to pluto. haha
kk im laming now. shall go and TRY to study sme history. work hard 1T05!.

sometimes, i just have to be strong.
cause i dont wanna see you fall

feeling all weak inside now.

2006-08-14T08:43:00.000-07:00

hey. didnt blog the last few days. was lazy duh. im kenny. hahs
anway, nothing happened the past few days. at least not quite significant. but sort of know quite a few things of a friend. didnt have a good impression at first. well. maybe it has changed. hahas

was quite worried actually. promos are freaking 3 wks away! 21 days!! even if i used 1 wk to cover a subject. i could only cover 3. hopeless i suppose. shld start searching for a poly. "hey SP, NYP all the **Ps, any vacancies?" lol

well. went to cut my hair ytd. guess what? i was SO so determined in wanting to cut botak before i go. and well, no surprise. KENNY chickened out.... AGAIN!. lols damn it! its the second time i tried la yet i failed agn. sadness. wonder where to find the courage to cut botak.. hahs maybe one day i shld talk to Zidane. lols

so at the salon, i went in. confident i iwll make it this time. so i told the auntie go ahead. well the stupid auntie recognise me and advise that she cut my sideburns first. darn! she kept asking if i was ready la. asked like 10 times. "EH auntie! even if im ready let u asked so many times also become not ready" so well, stopped the auntie at shaver point. i thought everthing is fine. so i looked up the mirror. AHHHhhh!!! too late mann! sideburns gone. what is consoling is that i managed to save the middle pile of my hair. looks damn weird and ugly la. needless to say, Mindy,being the evil one. kept laughing at me. MINDY!! arggh! never mind. forgive you since u help me buy sandwhich. lols

school today is not as long as it supposed to be. kinda fun. had a mini debate during GP. hahs keith as usual was SO enthusiastic and maybe unintentionally raised his voice. its funny la. ok its actually DAMN funny! but since it is SUPPOSED to be a serious topic. being the sensible kenny i manage to stop myself from laughing. ok i admit. i did laugh. but was minimal. at least to my standards. hahs

went delifrance for dinner with siti, denise and charissa. ate mango mousse and seafood lasagna. quite good. oh!. and the stupid evil trio confronted me with some unfounded accusations and base on their analysis, it is true cause i had ALOT of reactions. what dumb reason is that.

off to study. byeee~~~!!

2006-08-07T07:36:00.000-07:00

whee!~ dint go to school today. but hey! i got valid reason cause i went to extend my passport. so Liang. tis is not call (pon).

met up with jessie and her friend michelle at P.S's starbuck. waited for an hour before they came. and guess what.
its different now. didnt talk much. maybe time do bring people apart. and woah. kudos to her super super soft spoken michelle. shes one hell of a mugger. bet she do way better than jessie.
was about to go back to sch for GP cause i wanna know bout my GP essay which i think is the most well done piece of mine. but kenny is still kenny. went home instead. lalalala

went through blogs just now. esp during the first three month. conclusion? i was blinded. period
so many thing happened during the first three month. i nv chalked up so much regrets in my life. i went to the blog everyday without fail. its becoming a habit. the feeling i got is like im on an island. i knew i wasnt alone at first. but i just couldnt find you. i realised in the end. u have left. i pushed you away. maybe i shld have notice the helplessness in ur eyes when i pushed you away. maybe i shld just hold on. maybe i shld listen more to my heart. maybe i shld really open myself up once more. maybe. maybe.....

looking back at all my relationships. i realised. it all ended with regrets. i caused so much hurt. its scary. when i knew i can cause so much hurt.
shaldnt blog anymore. im getting emo. hahas

i stood in front of the mirror
and i close my eyes.
all i saw was nothing but darkness
it wasnt supposed to be like this.
where are you?!
then suddenly, something flashed past me.
i saw it. it was the helplessness in ur eyes
it was the look u had when i pushed you away
u didnt want to leave
i opened my eyes
i saw the look agn!
this time,
i saw it in the mirror....
(i created this poem. copyrights)

oh ya. i will not be in spore for the nxt two days. will update when im back. se you guys!

kenny's 'meaningful' day.

2006-08-06T03:19:00.000-07:00

im blogging abt my 'meaningful' day today. how interesting.
i am damn happy! cause i did a lot of meaningful things today.

things i've done today

woke up. (hey i actually wake up!)
washed up. (its meaningful cause its the only time i moved.)
afternoon nap.
woke up agn. (refer to bracket in no.1)
ate my dinner.(second time i moved. yayness!)
isnt these meaningful enough!?!

that sort of summed up my day. u guys will definitely be damn jealous cause kenny spends his day doing meaningful stuffs. hurrhur
haven enough started studying and i just got to realised (from jamie) that i still got ms rajan's LIT hmwk to do. well, that is what i call meaningless. Hmwk. tanks Jamie! hahs
i better get going. lest i have free period during Hist tml.

oh. and did i say i MUST study in my entry ytd?. lols did i? hmmm *act blur

BYE DUDES!

losing the race. (Time vs me)

2006-08-05T10:03:00.000-07:00

hey i just realised how slow im progressing. and the promos is 5 wks later!!! arrgh!. wads wrng wif bro pauL?! other JCs had theirs later than ours. i better start searching for polys now. hahs and i caught Time cheating today!!. i was changing the batteries for my clock and guess what! it is using steroid! well, energizer batteries actually.
i bet im using those china brand batteries la cause i cant seem to catch up with time. TIME! U BLOODY CHEATER. hurrhur funny kenny. randomness again. but hey, it takes creativity to come up with that.*grins*

had my pw meeting today. we met in toapayoh macs first. elizabeth and keith reached first followed by charissa. hahs. i just realised tat im the only one who nv ate there. nice job kenny! now..they are fatter than u!.
hahs went to the library for a rather productive yet unproductive research. i bet we made alot of noise in the com room.
and keith wanted to use the toilet and there he was, walking to different toilets and cming back with only dumb reports like the cubicle overflowed or its damn dirty.
wonder he get to use in the end? hahs pity his bladder. lol

went to shop and save to buy charissa's fisherman fresh after tat. ahas i chose it for her cause i tink xuanting wuld have loved the flavour. why? her face?. i dont know. she just have the type of face wich likes lemon. oh ya. u ppl shld witness how great an actress elizabeth is! she was like testing some sample of some milk when she tried and i mean TRIED hard to act interested.
ya rite elizabeth. interested in that sample only hur. haha

left for houagng to ball. met up with J.S.K , zhishu and jiahao.
i was late. and they barred me frm playing. sad. hah i shall not be late the nxt time. went home after tat and ta dung!~ im in frm of the com blogging now. kk randomness agn.
shall study econs and history tml. WAIT!
Adam Khoo said ''shall'' is a negative word.
MUST.
I MUST STUDY TML!. ..ZzZzzZzzz

2006-08-04T09:02:00.000-07:00

(*Drum rolls) Ladies and Gentlemen! Presenting to you (*Drums rolls) KENNY'S NEW BLOG!

oh well, i admit, its random cheap thrills. hahs you know, when u been sitting down staring at the computer straight for 4 hrs, u deserved to have cheap thrills. but well, i finished it and im quite satisfied. nice blog you have kenny. lols (jamie says its nice too).
shall blog smeting about this wk. what can i say, its been really stressful to a point when u feel like just using f**k to greet people. tests, mountains of hmwks, promos...its strangling me and breathing seems difficult now. IM STRESSED TO THE BRIM!! i just know, one of these days its gonna overflow. its just like u are on a boat with holes, u only have one small cup and as u pour out the water using the cup, 100 times of the amount of water gets onto the boat. scary huhh.
ahas. not being emo here (kenny's nv emo) but just wanted to rant and rant and rant. but luckily theres something to look forward to, charissa's suanning, denise's cuteness, bball trng and suannable samuel. not to forget my clsmates in 1T05. lols
its scary nowadays. i feel very empty, i stoned more than i have ever stoned in my life. its like when im laughing halfway, i can just stop suddenly and stone. its scaring me, im scared, scared of my studies (hey dun laugh!), scared that i culdnt promote ( hey i said dun laugh! hahs), scared that i disappoint my parents once again (*looks around). i just had my econs n hist tests todae. i felt reali guilty taking the test, guilty because she told us the ques beforehand yet i didnt even study for it. its always last min and as usual i waffle n waffle.
i have to wake up.
its time kenny...

well, shall end my first post here, btw ppl who wants me to link you pls leave me ur url at my chatterbox. nites